{"id":470550,"date":"2021-08-31T15:59:26","date_gmt":"2021-08-31T13:59:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/hashtag.al\/?p=470550"},"modified":"2021-08-31T16:01:24","modified_gmt":"2021-08-31T14:01:24","slug":"leter-fildesit","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/2021\/08\/31\/leter-fildesit\/","title":{"rendered":"Let\u00ebr FILDESIT","gt_translate_keys":[{"key":"rendered","format":"text"}]},"content":{"rendered":"
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N\u00eb foto Fildes Hafizi<\/p><\/div>\n

Nga Klodiana Lala*
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Fildes, sot, plot 4 vite pa Ty. Ke l\u00ebn\u00eb pas shum\u00eb dhimbje, po kaq dhe munges\u00eb…. E jo vet\u00ebm aty ku \u00ebsht\u00eb e ligjshme mungesa Jote, po edhe p\u00ebrtej, deri atje ku Ti ndoshta kurr\u00eb s\u2019do ta mendoje as besoje! Mungon si\u00e7 mungojn\u00eb ato pak gj\u00ebra t\u00eb vlerta q\u00eb i duhen jet\u00ebs, t\u00eb vertet\u00ebs dhe t\u00eb drejt\u00ebs… Ato, t\u00eb trija kan\u00eb nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr Ty, si\u00e7 kan\u00eb dashurit\u00eb e tua t\u00eb k\u00ebtejshme dhe t\u00eb andejshme! Nj\u00ebra, ajo sublimja, at\u00ebrorja t\u00eb ndoqi! S\u2019mundi t\u00eb rrinte pa Ty… pik\u00ebrisht momentin kur deshi te thyente heshtjen q\u00eb mbante emrin t\u00ebnd, t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn t\u00ebnde, t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn t\u00ebnde! Pik\u00ebrisht at\u00eb nat\u00eb (do t\u00eb rr\u00ebfehej n\u00eb emisionin e koleges Eni Vasili), u thye edhe nat\u00eb-dita e tij, e babait t\u00ebnd Bynjaminit… Bashk\u00eb me rr\u00ebfimin q\u00eb asnjeher\u00eb s’u ba publik, si nj\u00eb shenj\u00eb q\u00eb do t\u00eb p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsonte gjith\u00eb skajbot\u00ebn e humbjes s\u00eb tij…<\/span><\/p>\n

Kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb letra e kat\u00ebrt q\u00eb t\u00eb shkruaj. Tre t\u00eb tjerat i ruaj n\u00eb arkiv\u00ebn time dhe kam nj\u00eb arsye t\u00eb fort\u00eb p\u00ebrse e b\u00ebj. Mos ma k\u00ebrko t\u00eb ta rr\u00ebfej. Por, k\u00ebt\u00eb do ta publikoj k\u00ebtu te hap\u00ebsira ime, tek ajo qe e kam p\u00ebr te dashurit e mi… Jam e bindur q\u00eb do ta lexosh….<\/span><\/p>\n

Fildes, m\u00eb lejo t\u00eb t\u00eb them, q\u00eb vajza t\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb rritur shum\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb studente me nota t\u00eb mira. Po b\u00ebhet e zonja e vetes. Nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb model. Edhe djali, \u00ebsht\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb i mbar\u00eb. Nuk e ke iden\u00eb se sa t\u00eb jasht\u00ebzakonsh\u00ebm q\u00eb jan\u00eb. Jetojn\u00eb t\u00eb dy me gjyshen (n\u00ebn\u00ebn t\u00ebnde). Ah, n\u00ebna, sa shum\u00eb vuajtje ka p\u00ebrjetuar. Por mbahet, p\u00ebr TY e f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Amelia, motra jote. Ajo, nuk mundet qoft\u00eb edhe p\u00ebr nj\u00eb moment t\u00eb t\u00eb harroj\u00eb. Jeton me Ty e p\u00ebr Ty.\u00a0 E kam takuar disa her\u00eb. Jemi ulur e kemi folur gjat\u00eb. Her\u00ebn e fundit u pam\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb qend\u00ebr tregtare. Erdhi me t\u00eb shpejt\u00eb. Nuk m\u00eb la t\u00eb prisja.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cM\u00eb dhemb shpirti\u201d \u2013 m\u00eb tha \u2013 se di si mundem me jetu pa Desin. Ajo ishte busulla ime. Ishte shtylla ku mb\u00ebshtetesha. Njeriu i par\u00eb q\u00eb k\u00ebrkoja ndihm\u00eb, q\u00eb i tregoja gjith\u00e7ka\u201d. Mu rr\u00ebfye p\u00ebr ty. M\u00eb tha sa shum\u00eb e doje jet\u00ebn. Sa shum\u00eb e doj\u00eb pun\u00ebn. Se sa fort luftove t\u00eb ishte pjes\u00eb e Sistemit t\u00eb Drejt\u00ebsis\u00eb, q\u00eb vet\u00ebm drejt\u00ebsi p\u00ebr TY nuk b\u00ebri. \u201cNuk mjaftojn\u00eb fjal\u00ebt p\u00ebr t\u00eb treguar se kush ishte Desi. Nj\u00eb grua e zgjuar, e dashur, k\u00ebmb\u00ebngul\u00ebse, luftarake\u201d – tha m\u00eb z\u00ebrin e mekur, e teksa fshiu leht\u00eb lot\u00ebt. Nuk mundet ta besoj\u00eb sesi Ti nuk jeton m\u00eb. Nuk gjen dot arsye p\u00ebr dram\u00ebn q\u00eb iu ndodhi. \u201cThon\u00eb q\u00eb koha sh\u00ebron plag\u00eb. Por, s\u2019po ndodh k\u00ebshtu me mua. Sa vjen e dhimbja b\u00ebhet m\u00eb e madhe\u201d, mu gjegj Amelia. Sot, ajo do t\u00eb niset drejt varrezave. Do t\u00eb sjell\u00eb lule. Do t\u00eb ulet te koka e varrit dhe do t\u00eb bisedoj\u00eb me Ty, si ngahera kur rr\u00ebfenit \u00e7do sekret nj\u00ebra-tjetr\u00ebs. M\u00eb tregoi se, mezi priste t\u00eb takoheshit s\u00eb bashku. I nisnit bisedat aty, ku i kishit l\u00ebn\u00eb. Mes trishtimit e dhimbjes m\u00eb tha: \u201cM\u00eb duket sikur po m\u00eb plas zemra, \u00e7’dreq jete paska qen\u00eb\u201d.<\/span><\/p>\n

Fildes, Ti nuk ishe dhe nuk je e vetmja grua q\u00eb nj\u00eb i paburr\u00eb t\u00eb mori jet\u00ebn. Pasi ike ti e dashur, t\u00eb paburr\u00ebt kan\u00eb guxuar t\u00eb vrasin prap\u00eb. Kan\u00eb vrar\u00eb pa arsye. P\u00ebr kapri\u00e7io. Se e shohin gruan si pron\u00eb. N\u00eb Kosov\u00eb u vra Marigona. Nj\u00eb i paburr\u00eb, e rrahu barbarisht. I theu edhe gjymtyr\u00ebt.<\/span><\/p>\n

Fildes, mbase me shum\u00eb vones\u00eb, por po t\u00eb tregoj, se q\u00eb ish-burri, i paburr\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb mori jet\u00ebn, \u00ebsht\u00eb d\u00ebnuar me burgim t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetsh\u00ebm. I nj\u00ebjti fat pret \u00e7do burr\u00eb q\u00eb guxon t\u00eb marr\u00eb jet\u00eb. \u201cDuhen edukuar djemt\u00eb\u201d, m\u00eb tha Amelia. Ka t\u00eb drejt\u00eb. Edhe un\u00eb them duhet edukuar djemt\u00eb. Por nuk mjafton kaq. Besoj t\u00eb kujtohet Fildes, kur i shp\u00ebtove atentatit t\u00eb par\u00eb. E mban mend besoj, se n\u00eb sa dyer trokite, duke shpresuar t\u00eb t\u00eb merrnin n\u00eb mbrojtje. Por shteti, nuk t\u00eb mbrojti dot. Ti u q\u00ebllove me plumba n\u00eb mes t\u00eb dit\u00ebs, n\u00eb nj\u00eb rrug\u00eb t\u00eb mbipopulluar. Si Ti, edhe shum\u00eb gra t\u00eb tjera, kan\u00eb klithur p\u00ebr ndihm\u00eb. Askush s\u2019u \u00ebsht\u00eb gjendur pran\u00eb. Fildes, un\u00eb vazhdoj raportoj p\u00ebr histori t\u00eb grave t\u00eb dhunuara, t\u00eb vrara. Jet\u00eb njer\u00ebzore t\u00eb humbura. Sot, ndihem keq. Sepse, ne si shoq\u00ebri po d\u00ebshtojm\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019i mbrojtur grat\u00eb. Po i braktisim. Nuk mjafton vet\u00ebm t\u00eb edukohen djem. Por, edhe shkolluar vajzat, emancipuar shoq\u00ebria. T\u2019u jepet mund\u00ebsi pun\u00ebsimi, t\u00eb jen\u00eb t\u00eb pavarura. T\u00eb forcohen institucionet, q\u00eb gruaja t\u00eb ket\u00eb ku t\u00eb denoncoj\u00eb. Sa her\u00eb takoj nj\u00eb t\u00eb dhunuar, i them: B\u00ebje p\u00ebr veten tende, p\u00ebr f\u00ebmij\u00ebt e tu, p\u00ebr grat\u00eb e tjera: Denonco!<\/span><\/p>\n

T\u00eb shkruaj pik\u00ebrisht Ty, sepse denoncove. Guxove t\u00eb p\u00ebrballeshe me vras\u00ebsin. M\u00eb vjen keq q\u00eb s\u2019t\u00eb shp\u00ebtuam dot. Por, pusho n\u00eb paqe, sepse je shembull, p\u00ebr grat\u00eb e vajzat. Iu m\u00ebsove sesi t\u00eb guxojm\u00eb p\u00ebr veten, t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn dhe jet\u00ebn\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

*Fildes Hafizi ishte gjyqtarja q\u00eb u vra vite m\u00eb par\u00eb nga ish-bashk\u00ebshorti i saj, Fadil Kasemi<\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false,"gt_translate_keys":[{"key":"rendered","format":"html"}]},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Nga Klodiana Lala* Fildes, sot, plot 4 vite pa Ty. Ke l\u00ebn\u00eb pas shum\u00eb dhimbje, po kaq dhe munges\u00eb…. E jo vet\u00ebm aty ku \u00ebsht\u00eb e ligjshme mungesa Jote, po edhe p\u00ebrtej, deri atje ku Ti ndoshta kurr\u00eb s\u2019do ta mendoje as besoje! Mungon si\u00e7 mungojn\u00eb ato pak gj\u00ebra t\u00eb vlerta q\u00eb i duhen jet\u00ebs, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false,"gt_translate_keys":[{"key":"rendered","format":"html"}]},"author":51,"featured_media":470551,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20,65],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-470550","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-blog","category-lajme"],"gt_translate_keys":[{"key":"link","format":"url"}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/470550","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/51"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=470550"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/470550\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/470551"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=470550"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=470550"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.hashtag.al\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=470550"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}